Sunday, 23 June 2019

I was expecting to have a very stern conversation with my building manager, but she's trying to come up with ways I could make money.  Unfortunately, I can't make $800/month selling straws or baking. I don't have my rent and can't pay other bills, there's no way around that.  Yes I could get a roommate, I still have ads up, but I can't pay my half of the rent for an unknown period of time and I don't want to flake on someone and leave them with nowhere to live. She thinks I should do it anyways.  Desperate measures I guess.

She had all sorts of suggestions that weren't going to work out, and I was trying to figure out why this lady was trying to help me when I don't have my rent, and then thought: maybe it's because she likes you.  What would I do if a friend wasn't going to have anywhere to live?  I probably wouldn't think "oh well, guess she's sleeping in her car now.  Way it goes."  I'd care a lot more if this happened to someone else.

We went out for coffee and a doughnut (why is this lady being nice to me??), also I'm using her internet connection.  The manager gave me her wifi password as I haven't had internet since I got sick.  It makes life a lot easier.

I've cleaned apartments after move-out here for several years, and fixed the drywall, paint, closet doors.  For $10/hour cash, which is below minimum wage now, but I know how small the manager's salary is, and I have to take whatever work I can get.  Those jobs are her responsibility, she can't do them herself, and I'm leaving suddenly.  Also she'll look bad if I don't pay my rent on the first because she was my main reference when I moved in.  I hadn't been back in Canada that long and didn't have much history.

Stuck in Canada suddenly, no longer a permanent resident, without any landlord or employment references for a decade and no credit, I nearly didn't exist.  My husband had died in another country, I couldn't afford to go back, and I couldn't feel anything.  Sometimes I still don't.

My building manager wants me to bake pies this week and try to make some money.  I have a bag of granny smith apples, but I also have too many more important things to do and can't do that much.  Soliciting orders on Facebook takes a lot of organisation time. I'll try to find the time.  I'm not going to miraculously come up with my last month's rent and change this.

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